martes, octubre 13, 2009

When i grow up ( i guess)

Three years ago i meet a person that was really different from the ones i used to meet. He has maybe 80 years and one of the first phrases that came out of his mouth when i meet him was "i'll die when i want to die maybe in 12 or 13 years...". He has a 30 year old wife, 3 kids and the spirit of a 30 year old guy.

After some time, he start talking about past, present, future and the stages of the human life and the reason why he will die in maybe 12 or 13 years. He told us that the past will always be the past, we can't change it (even if we want to) and we spend more than 70% of our time thinking about things that happened. We also spend more than 20% thinking about the future and we can't also control it, we hope or espect something to happen and when it doesn't we get angry and disappointed so again, it's a waste of time. The rest of the time (10%) we think about the present, in other words we spend more than (90%) of the time thinking on things that we can't control but in some way we are the result of our past and what we do definatelly will set our future. "There is no future, there is no past, just today. It's all that you are, it's all that you have. Tomorrow ¿Who knows?.... no one" was the last phrase he told us that day.

The next day I woke up living with the Don Frank Philosophy (the guy's name is Frank, so he deserve the credit). I started caring about the present, leaving the past in the past and making my own future now ( It's like living "my way on the highway" song). For three years I stopped hoping for things to happen or thinking about tomorrow and focused everyting in the present. Today I don't regret anything I ever did, of course i had good moments and "reflection moments" so I take the good ones and learn from the bad ones.

Today I was thinking in this "life philosophy", maybe it's not a philosophy at all and it's all about attitude, attitude with yourself, whith the others and whith life. Sometimes life's a bitch ( and i hate bitches) but i have the last word, if life is a bitch it's because I allowed that (The Don Frank Guilty Philosophy say's that this also applies with women and I agree).

The reason i'm writting this, is because the last weeks i've been meeting some people, people I already knew and I'm glad they're alive. With most of them I spent some moments, good moments. I d0n't have 18 years and i really don't want to have them (in a forever young way), I lived what I wanted to live and it feels good, and i know that the people that I care about are really doing the same thing.

Life comes in thousands of stages from the time we were a little part of our mother's body untill the day we die. We choose which ones live and wich ones don't, it's free will and when we think there is nothing else to do, we just have to change the way we see the world and realize that there's nothing new, just things that we didn't see. Just like Don Frank said "The people dies because they work, have a familly, sons, grandchildren and then they think that there's nothing else to do in this world and die in a wheelchair, they think it's the last stage... but i don't, i have a wife, 3 kids, a work, some grandchildren (from other wives, nutty nutty guy!!) .. and yes! there's more things that i have to do and live in the next 12 or 13 years.... life goes on and so i am"

[Attitude: Redisposition or a tendency to respond positively or negatively towards a certain idea, object, person, or situation. Attitude influences an individual's choice of action, and responses to challenges, incentives, and rewards]

2 comentarios:

Tani@ dijo...

how beautiful way to write your thoughts... how incredible way of thinking... just hope you verbalize more often everything you have in your brain and heart.

you are grrreat!

kabulin dijo...

si si, lo que hace el ocio.. jaja